I don’t want my “pre baby” body back… nor any body that served me before this moment, a body that I had last month, last year or when I got married. Those are ancient history.
Every second that passes cells in your being are being replaced anew…That’s a terribly refreshing thought, isn’t it? As far as science can tell the only cells that aren’t cyclically replaced over and over in your lifetime are neurons in the cerebral cortex…
I was at a mom and baby yoga class last week, doing very little yoga and a whole lot of “momming”… one of the girls made a comment I didn’t hear and my very wise yoga instructor replied
“Your body will never be the same as it was before, why would you want it to be? Look at this beautiful baby you created”…
That statement hit me, in a very resounding and profound way. Every journey we have taken, every event that has passed we lived it in that body at that time. Much like we can never relive our memories we should also not long for bodies of past, or spend much time thinking about our body of the future.
Too much time spent remembering the past results in depression; too much time spent imagining and anticipating the future results in anxiety.
I am so proud of this body, it has taken me surfing in Oregon (freezing!), rock climbing in Thailand, trekking up to Machu Picchu, through 30 day yoga challenges and periods of neglect. Most recently it grew a human! A tiny beautiful little girl named Liv Adaline, this body birthed her in our home with nothing but love and support and now it continues to nourish her as I provide her milk.
I love this body and it is clear to me that it loves me right back.
I am not saying I won’t exercise and take good care of this body or that I will be a glutton. I will go to mom and baby yoga, I will take walks and eat healthful foods, I will also have wine, and chocolate and be gentle with myself and present.
I don’t want a body of the past.. I want this body, right here, right now, in this present moment to honor and cherish.
Love and light,